Studying gives me occasional random thoughts.

1) VS bikinis rocks - there can never be any like theirs.

2) I am a late bloomer; really late. Nearly got retained in Sec 2 cause i was the first in the cohort - from the back. Bucked up a bit in upper sec.

3) Learnt most of the things I know in Uni.

4) Always believed that I cannot do something 'cause people told me I can't; until recently.

5) Aim for the day when I can walk into any store, with absolutely no penny (or cents) counting and buy what I want.

6) For a major part of my life (20 years?), I thought I'll be contented with a family and just enough to get by as long as everyone is healthy.

7) Now, I want to aim for more; alot more just because nothing is ever certain. Health is still a priority.

8) Only two things in the world give power - politics and business, not science. Unless you're Einstein with a hell lot of connections.

9) I crave for power and I plan to work towards it. Baby steps, that's all it matters.

10) I will not give up God for anything; He has been there no matter how astray, rebellious, ridiculous and negative I've been. Believe me, I had my really bad days.

11) I attempted suicide. Two periods in my life. Lucky for me, I was too much of a coward to see it through.

12) Thankful for those periods - it gives me the chance to relate with others and truly say, I know how it feels.

13) The other day, someone told me - you really make me very happy. I had been nothing more but myself; pursuing what i want, being who i am and free. I didn't even have to try.

14) For the first time in my life, I managed to make someone happy just by being me. Couldn't have love him more with those words. Thank God. (:

15) My ideal trip will be to New York (shop), Paris (Xmas), and then to Prague.

16) I wanna have a dog. And a cat. A golden retriever and a fat cat. Damn cute sight!

17) I believe in having a backup plan for everything I do. Nothing is ever 100% guaranteed. Those commericals lie, you know.

18) Coffee on a <6-hr sleep days is orgasmic.

19) If my inner comments are made known, no one will come near me.

20) I cherish my friends, and i DO bear grudges.

21) People who say, forgive and forget are either extremely saintly, or have not been through experiences/comments that really affected them. I believe it's more of the latter. Mother Teresa is one in a million.

22) Rapists, terrorists and murderers should not be put on death row. A lot of clinical trials are falling short due to lack of human models. Land mines from the past two wars need not be cleared up by soldiers and civilians.

23) My undies are color-coordinated. My actual wardrobe is in a mess.

24) Nice underwear give me a sense of empowerment; it's like a secret only I know.

24) A g-string costs 10x more than a granny panty - the power of marketing.

25) Rich guys are not appealing. Daddies monies can work wonders. Only.

26) I judge a man by how he treats his subordinates and "lower" working class. Actually, I judge most people that way.

27) Yes, I'm a Christian. And yes, I judge. To be accepting of all is hypocritical and lacking a view point.

28) I am racist. To an extent.

29) Christmas is the best event of the year. I always get filled with a warm glow that no other event can bring, not even my own bdae.

30) At 17, I had a crush on person of the same gender.(shucks, have I told sham this!)

31) 10 year relationship mark w my secondary school friends is finally here. I love them for being with me through all my nonsense. I love them for letting me be me and still loving me despite not being there for most of the gatherings, especially in university.

32) I am not naturally sociable. It depends on my mood. I can be, if I want to.

33) I pull a long face because 1) i'm tired 2) i'm moody 3) i want to 4) i naturally look like that!

34) Cosmetic surgery is not out of my list if I get excessive cellulite that nothing can reduce it; my boobs sag like mad; varicose veins start showing.

35) I love the smell and sound of rain. Only when I'm at home.

36) Creamy pasta over tomato, anytime. Unless he cooks it the way I like it w olive oil and lotsa garlic. (:

37) Not a TV fan. A romantic, medieval based novel, anytime.

38) Favorite holiday program: Wake up at 9am, eat a huge breakfast (preferably buffet), wait for the poo arrival back in the room; falling asleep while the boy watches tv and i wait for the poo to come (without avail); waking up; finally getting dressed to head out; dinner back in the hotel on the bed followed by drinks, desserts, tv, nice shower, more tv and sleep.

People say it's a waste. But that's a holiday - to be comfortable and enjoying it. I'm glad he likes it the way I do.

39) My love for science, neurobiology and children comes together in a really unfortunate disorder - glioblastoma.

40) I wish we can all be as God intended and created us to be - to love, trust, believe, cherish and kind.

41) Child-sex offenders, be it indirectly or directly, no matter how influential, should be tortured. Human cachexia/HIV/cancer models, anyone?

42) Being drunk is not an excuse for judgement lapses. To be totally drunk, one would have passed out - I passed out after finishing half a 1L Smirnoff bottle with him in Brisbane. One moment I was mumbling, the next, I was out. Then a moment later, my body jerked up by itself and I grabbed a plastic bag. The rest is history.

Thank God for the body's attempt at homeostasis. Otherwise, I'd have been crazily intoxicated and ashes now.

43) Random sex with strangers is ridiculous. Be an escort and earn some. Everything comes with a price tag, including sex, sans committments (duh).

44) I classify the people I know.

45) Wish I can draw.

46) I always tear up while singing hymms.

47) During service, I'll look around and wonder, how many are true Christians after service; how many actually watch porn and how many are truly unafraid.

48) Kisses are awesome.
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Continuing another time! BED TIME! (: